'Death is always on the way, but the fact that you don't know when it will arrive seems to take away from the finiteness of life. It's that terrible precision we hate so much. But because we do not know, we get to think of life as an inexhaustible well. Yet everything happens only a certain number of times, and a very small number, really. How many more times will you remember a certain afternoon of your childhood, an afternoon that is so deeply a part of your being that you can't even conceive of your life without it? Perhaps four or five times more. Perhaps not even that. How many more times will you watch the full moon rise, perhaps twenty? And yet it all seems so limitless.'

[Paul Bowles]

says it all i think [not sure how it reads in german though...]

we are all lost and it doesn't matter and all that we do doesn't matter - the only choice is whether we try not to cause too much hurt for others [or ourselves]

take care

L.